Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


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Saturday, June 28, 2008
8:56 AM


I am not the one to give up easily, or maybe the expression giving up is not the exact thing to say but at this particular moment in time there is nothing close so that will do.

My worst habit in this lifetime is if I want something and the something is being held back from me for no good reason I would simply just set my mind to not need it anymore...

When I was a child it was toys, books and cartoons cds...

When I grew up it was emotions, thoughts and feelings... which destroys the person that is withering away because in the end of the day they would mean utterly nothing to me.

It would take an immense time and effort for me to even consider again, maybe I am meant to be alone with friends that I watch and secretively share happiness because they are happy.

Moment of weakness...

I have it too much this year...

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Friday, June 27, 2008
1:49 PM

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you’re not around,
And the fact that you didn’t call
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
Not even close…
Not even a little bit…
Not even at all.

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Thursday, June 26, 2008
5:12 PM

Sent by someone very dear to me,

I loved through what seemed to be passion, and tried to love through the pain
When my heart said it's not right, I still held on in vain
They say use your head, not your heart, for the heart is weak and frail
But the head can't be much wiser for it only rationalized every detail

Still my heart kept on nudging, how much more can you take
Till one day it finally hit me how much is at stake
And 'twas not my head nor my heart that made the way for me
But the broken soul inside me that desires to love…to be free

I'm resolved to get through this, I know I dare not falter
But my strength seems to wither when I think of the "hereafter"
Yet hope rises within me at a glimpse of what could be
And I know I want nothing more than to escape this misery

Whoever said it would be easy to simply say goodbye
When you have opened your heart to someone, it takes a little more than just a try
I want and deserve much more than I've allowed myself these years
Now it's time for me to love me and awake from this nightmare

To those who reads this
Love From Mine Heart
Adika

To the one who wrote this the poem
Your heart is beautiful

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8:25 AM

Frankly I would say that I feel blessed that even though whatever happens this now there are people who stick to me through the very end. There are also new friends and faces that takes me by the hand (literally) and show me that Life is not that bad really... If I just brush the dirt away and give a little shine, everything is just as good as new.

Even though its a little dented and whatnots... its still working :)

Yesterday I felt reaffirmed that I am still worth someone's time when Pat, someone that I have spoken in passing came to the my work place yesterday and almost screamed "ADIKA!!! I missed you... I really do missed you!!!"

Brings me to smile... actually it almost brings me to tear because at part particular moment some memories came back without me willing, but it was nice when the warm feeling was there.

Am a simple person after all

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
8:30 AM

It is more than logical to replace the things you lose in life... But the emotions are cravings that will never fade no matter how hard you try to cover it up.

I will still forever be in love with my first love...

I will still forever remember how makes the ultimate mistaken in screwing up all the relationship that I ever had...

I will still forever know the reason why i have blog my feelings out rather than have someone close to hear it from me...

Basically I am afraid... maybe i knew it from the start of this year that I will screw up big time. It my fault that I am nightly alone and wandering the street looking for memories that fades away from me.

So many emotions have been erased from this black black heart of mine, the cravings that i have hit beyond recognition, that i am so afraid that I wont have any feelings left for the ones that exist still in my life.

I feel that I have died and now i am just lingering waiting for my final sentence.

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