It is more than logical to replace the things you lose in life... But the emotions are cravings that will never fade no matter how hard you try to cover it up.

I will still forever be in love with my first love...

I will still forever remember how makes the ultimate mistaken in screwing up all the relationship that I ever had...

I will still forever know the reason why i have blog my feelings out rather than have someone close to hear it from me...

Basically I am afraid... maybe i knew it from the start of this year that I will screw up big time. It my fault that I am nightly alone and wandering the street looking for memories that fades away from me.

So many emotions have been erased from this black black heart of mine, the cravings that i have hit beyond recognition, that i am so afraid that I wont have any feelings left for the ones that exist still in my life.

I feel that I have died and now i am just lingering waiting for my final sentence.

Labels: reflection