Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


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Lyrics of the song "Notice Me" by Zetta Bytes

Thursday, August 7, 2008
2:45 PM

"I kneel down before you
I have not more strength
Show me the way, my sweet lord
Away from this Breakdown Palace"

Breakdown and Cry

I was at my worst yesterday nothing could be more much of a painful experience for me. It surpasses any loneliness that I have felt for anything at all. I cried for hours on end in the balcony of the apartment, with the lights out and the cold wind being a harsh reminder that I was indeed alone.

I tried everything...

I tried to be sane not to think more suicidal thought that seem to be more logical than any any other. There was a point looking down the concrete from the fifth floor was the most welcoming sight that I have seen for such a long time

Dont...

Please dont partronise me...

So what if lately do feel suicidal... its my life if do decide to end it then it would be my choice wouldnt it?

Sigh...

I dont know when I stopped crying... I figured I must have slept outside because my back was hurting, but it it subsided at my head feel even more painful than anything. I crept back into the apartment and slept... waking every hour... looking around with such disorientation that made me feel so scared.

I then tried to message people quite randomly... I guess i was trying desperately for any human contact.

Looking back now... i was really messed up

Dont get me wrong this entry does not ask for pity... that would be the least of that I want. More than anything this entry serves as a tombstone for my life when I indeed almost end everything.

It hurts to know that you are alone... not really

It hurts more to look at you friends and you are unable to tell them your pain because you just cannot tell them anything anymore.

Ladies and gentlemen...

Now that truly hurts...

Ironically... this song kind of saved me, a soundtrack from 'Across The Universe'

Blackbird Fly

"Blackbird singing on the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to sky
All your life
you have been waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird Fly

Into the light of the dark night"

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