Waking up this morning gives me a somewhat bleak outlook of what today is going to become, I know that being negative is not something I should be doing but really sometimes I do feel down and I do recluse to my own self because its what I naturally do.

I feel angry at the world for some weird reason.

I feel angry at everything and everyone.

But most of all I feel the utmost angry with myself... I felt like this before and its utterly not healthy at all (yes, you think? i heard people say) and this will tire me down, before I know it I would be in hibernation mode whereby I just shut people away, yet again.

I already made myself lost friends...

Save for Himself and somewhat Phoenix, I felt that the world has not and will not forgive me for what I have done.

For that one person... thanks for showing me that you are already dead and I will stop trying to do whatever and just know that its too late to be friends because I am just tired of you.
Yes I did what I did... but on your part... you didnt?

So lets play this game fair and square... We hate each other so be it, I would play my role and you would play yours.

"And he has died, the one with beautiful heart
He has left me here beside of the raging sea"

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