My Beloved,

I know time will change us, as hard as we try to be who we are time will shed a different shade every time you go father away from me. Slowly but surely you fade into the background, am afraid you will just become a shadow that cease to leave but always haunting me.

I couldnt believe~ i still choose to not believe that you have however change so drastically.

Where is all the passion that i used to seek within you? had it dimmed and just went out without me realize it. Maybe now just holding on pathetically to the past memories that makes me smile and happy when I walk down the place where we used to go.

I die each day... as i realized that you are slowly dying in my heart.

My smile and my happiness fades away and the misery comes yet again.

I have lost alot in the past and now should i face the fact that i am losing you, then i would rather to love you in silence and also in pain~ if that makes you happy. I guess there is too much to say but it would be a waste as you already made up your mind.

I just wait until you come around... even if till i die~

Love Always,
Adika

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