Yesterday I was all the time low, it felt so close as my suicide days as I wander aimlessly to nowhere. Somehow I felt that utter loneliness again where there is that cold hard realization that karma has catch up with me...

In the end I just wanted to be alone yesterday- time to myself to think about certain things that came to linger in my mind.

Although at time I certain do give a strong front but I am very weak and brittle inside, just like what my friend told me "heart are never mended, once broken... it heals with scars".
This entry does not intend to attack anyone... to Syaf; its not you.

Its just me having to reassure myself again ~

- Crying Without Knowing -

Can I sit awhile and see my pain
While I am lost here in the seething rain
Oh... here is my life
Something that I have forsaken.

Behold my misery; adorns me for eternity.

"is he the one?" I heard them glee
I walk faster, I tried to flee.

Can I sit while and see my journey
While I am lost here lost for all to see
Oh... here is my lifesomething that I have lost
Behold this all; As I take the fall

Labels: death, destruction, fear, loneliness, poem, suicide, weakness