"Try"

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

I dont know why we choose to believe in the worse in people and then all the good things will be gone immediately. Maybe i am just not sensitive to the surrounding even though the fact that i do go the limit to lending a hand with a free heart and with a distraction at work all of those effort goes to ultimate waste.

well i think my effort is wasted... not to mention unappreaciated, and how small it makes me feels. Because in the back of my mind i am thinking "if i can hold the fact i have to share you with someone and brush it off then... why couldnt you at times brush off your paranoia?"

How you do think it feels to know that if i am spending the night with someone else?

Or being hidden because i am technical anyways the second one in the relationship?

Do you not think that i have endured so much?

You said you are a not a hearbreaker... but really... you dont think you have broken one?

Labels: reflection, relationship